I have had abusive experiences from men my whole life too many incidents to mention. the worst was being sexually abused and tortured by priests at 7 years old for 3 years. It was particularly bad for me as I did not know I am autistic so completely had a melt down over the hypersensitive smell and repulsion to their body fluids so I used to fight like hell, kick, scream, hit etc when the other kids just gave in